Saturday, December 31, 2011

goodbye 2011, hello 2012

It's New Year's Eve. Whoa. 2011 is barely over.
It's crazy to think that tomorrow is January 1st. A new year. It's like a new beginning. A fresh start. This year was hard for me. I had a lot things that tested me. Tested me in my faith in God but also for who I am.

It was a year of growth.

Below is my 2011 playlist. These are some songs that really show what this year was like. I wrote these songs in my journal when these songs helped me out in the low times.

Sorry, I would write more but I'm tired.... see ya next year.... :)

Goodbye 2011, hello 2012.


Friday, December 30, 2011

friday's favorites!

Today is Friday's Favorites!!! I hope you had an amazing week. I loved just about every single day because it was filled with nothingness. I'm starting back up with school next week (hurray...) so these sort of days are remembered for the rest of my life. Sorta. Anyhoo...

I LOVED this idea from A Beautiful Mess! ADORABLE! I LOVE, I LOVE, I LOVE! Though it's sort of too late to do this project because I have no cool photos from this past year to make a cool calender with. Boo hoo. But I'm thinking maybe next year (2012, I already love you) I'll bring this project back around....
If I had these fellas, my life would be complete. (I'm gonna cry from their cuteness! BAH!)

Emma wrote about what she's been doing these past few weeks...sounds amazing! :)
I loved this post by Mandy. I feel the same way sometimes.
I'm dying for rain. Dying! God, if you're reading this, please send me rain pronto monto. I beg of you.

Thursday, December 29, 2011

almost over

2011 is almost over.
That is all.

Wednesday, December 28, 2011


I've changed. Throughout these past few months, I've been a few different people. Same me. Different perspectives. Something happened and I changed.

Summer this year was weird and by the end of it something happened that was really hard. It's still going on, and by day it gets harder. Things built up and I put myself down more and more. I was hurt. But all I did to myself was cut deeper.

I wandered. Away. From God. From people. From things that used to mean so much, now only meant so little. I thought I was lost... until I found out someone was still there when I thought I was alone.
Everyone makes mistakes, right? From the low times I took the mistakes that happened and made them my own. And when I made mistakes, all I did was make it worse. I convinced myself that I was worthless, unloved. I've felt so depressed, hopeless. I decided from all the junk going on that I was screwed. God was tired of me. That's what I thought. How could He work with me? All I was was a person who was not strong enough to protect myself.

I felt forgotten. I go to church every Sunday and I see amazing things happen. But then I look at myself - there was nothing amazing happening in me, in my life. God was doing great things in other people's lives, which is awesome :), but I felt like mine was forgotten.
Last night I went over to my friend's house to sing songs (also known as worship :)) and stuff. Some of the people there have gone up to Bethel Church up in Redding, CA and have experienced some AAAAMMMMMAAAAZING things (don't get me wrong! amazing!) so she wanted to share that with us, who are all the way down here. (yay!)

It was the first time in a long time I felt like things would be okay. It was the first time in a long time I felt truly focused on God. It was the first time I didn't feel forgotten. God was meeting up me and I didn't turn him down.

Though there is still a lot to be done in me. I've messed myself up, but now I know a new way.

So maybe I'm gonna make it after all. God can turn things around. Maybe you don't know where he stands in your life. Maybe it's seems like you're wandering away, but you're not lost. Search. Press harder. Because when you look for Him, he'll meet you there.

there is always hope for the hopeless.
there is always worth for the worthless.
there is always happiness for the unhappy.
there is always love for the unloved.
Believe it.


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