fresh

I haven't posted in a very looooong time. Sorry 'bout that. But, hey, here's a post. :) I honestly have no idea what I'm going to say, so bear with me. I'm thinking. Sorta just need to bluh all over this. haha :)

I feel like a fresh start is coming. I went outside earlier and that's what I felt. Freshness...crisp air. Love that. Though the sky is so gloomy and I'm just waiting for the rain. Just waiting for something to happen. Do you ever feel that way? Just waiting for something...just sometimes not sure what.

I see bright colors. I've seen brighter days. :) You know, one where I can ACTUALLY SEE THE SUN! (uh, please rain. though I love rain. but I just get depressed. but I still love it. don't judge) Though...sometimes it just feels like there is a brokeness in dark days like these. Where the sun wants to shine but the clouds don't let it. Light is held back. It's sad.

And sometimes I feel like that's what happens in our lives. We want to shine but we're held back. Restrained? Yeah. Sorta like we've got these invisible chains of past hurt and things people have said that refuse to let go. I just see chains gripping and cutting and hurting people, maybe even you. 

But the rain has gotta come. I know it does. And sometimes it has to rain before you can see the sun again. Cause after the rain falls, the clouds fade away, then blue sky appears, the sun comes out, and then there's the smell.

Yes, thee smell.

The one where you smell that clean air and you're like, "Oh yeah, I like this stuff." It's a fresh start. One where you don't have to wear those chains anymore during those dark days. Where that clean air can just wash over you and you know for sure that you got a fresh start.

Don't worry anymore...the rain is coming. But it will end. Bright days are coming. A fresh start is coming. (Summer is coming. YES!) And you know what, I think your chains are falling.

Emma

7 questions!

Hey peoples! I'm linking up with Gentri Lee today for 7 questions!! :) So cool. I'm supposed to post a funny photo of myself but I can't because you might be a stalker and plus...err, nevermind. So the photo below is not me...it's somebody else that I don't know. Just found it on tumblr. And I liked it. Uh, there you go. My life for today. Er...yeah, anyway...LET'S DO THIS THING!! :)

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1. Would you rather have your life be a constant vacation or always stay home?

Constant vacation! I like to see things and travel places. :) Fun stuff, my friends.

2. What is your favorite book? (it can be any book! cook book, picture book, whatever!)

PSH. The Hunger Games, by Suzanne Collins! Best book I've ever read. And if you have read it, tell me you think it's the best book ever.

Seriously, tell me it's the best book ever.

3. You have to be on a reality tv show- which would you chose?

American Idol. But I can't sing. So...er...uh...nevermind. I don't think I want to be on TV. Actually, I think I would want to be in the crowd of Ellen. Or maybe not. But she's not even a reality show! I dunno. Can I be on Spongebob?

4. What is your favorite form of exercise? (running, zumba, step, etc)

I love riding around on my bike. Espechially on summer afternoons...man, the good days. Though I love rain. Okay, I'll be quiet now.

5. What is one thing that you've never tried but are CONVINCED you hate? (foods, activities, etc)

Sky diving. I hate it so much I don't even want to talk about it. Bye.

6. Do you have any hidden talents?

Lip-singing. Practice everyday, every night, all the time...in front of my mirror. It's the best.

7. What's the best prank you've ever pulled?

I don't think I've ever actually pulled a prank. But I've definetly dreamed about it. Though I did call McDonald's once, but that sorta failed.

Anyway, hope you're having an awesome day, person on the other side of the screen! Just ate 5 spring rolls...ah, soooo good. And in an hour heading over to my friend's house to watch Nacho Libre. Fun stuff, my friends. Fun stuff.

Emma

one question. sort of.

This one thought drives me crazy. I think about it from time to time. Like last night. I just stared at my ceiling till midnight trying to decide, YES or NO. My question is: Give or Keep?

The first kiss, my friend. Yes, yes. You heard me right. The first kiss.

I have no boyfriend and I don't think I want one until after high school...but I don't know what's going to happen between now and then. If for some reason some random guy is going to pop out and say, "I WANT TO KISS YOU!!!!!!!!!!" What do I do? Seriously, people. :) THIS IS SERIOUS!

I've got boundaries. Nothing past kissing until marriage, my friends. Just putting that out there in words. BOOM! I don't want to give myself away so easily to any guy, you know? Though back to the...uh...you know. Kissing part. I've heard many different preferences and they're all over the place. Like, "Go ahead and kiss a guy. It's just a stinking kiss." Or other people are like, "SAVE IT! SSSSAAAAVVVVEE IIIIITTTTT!!!!!"

And I just don't know what to do. If I should, save the first kiss for the engagement day or wedding day, or just kiss the guy. I dunno.

So, what do you think? Keep it or give it? And if you're married, did you save your first kiss or did you give it away?

Okay. You gotta tell me. It's killing me. And do you want me to die? I hope not. Because I don't feel like dying today. Or for a really, very, long, loooong time. Amen.

Emma

why, hello there...

You probably thought I died, right? Well, I did. No, no. I'm alive. And breathing. And still around today, walking, and stuffs. I've just been busy...with life. And everything that comes with it, my friend. Know what I'm saying?

Anyway, I'm basically writing this post just to let you know that I haven't forgotten. Though I'm sort of "burned-out" on what to write about on my blog... Ever get that way? Where you just don't know what to say sometimes? Most people write about their daily-life on their blogs, but I don't really want this blog to be that sort of place. I haven't exactly figured out what this place is, but don't worry. I'll keep on keeping on (posting). :)

So days have been filled with school, reading books, rereading the Hunger Games, going to the movies today for the Hunger Games, and JEEEESUS. Going through emotions (like any other girl my age. Geez, story of my life). Figuring stuff out. Experiencing craziness. And...finding God in the weirdest places. Finding the places that I love. Trying not to pee in my pants while hanging out with people that are HIL-LARRY-IOUS. Getting excited over nothing. Exhausted from everything.

But I like it.
I like it a lot.
And that's what keeps me from posting these days.
Time.

How've you been, my friend?

Emma

HORRIFYING horror movies. True Story.

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Dude...you've probably seen a horror movie, right? If you have, I'm ranking you "Experienced Horror-Movie Watcher". If not, stay innocent. Trust me. I am scarred for life.

I can't get it off my mind. The horror movie I watched. It was called, "The Grudge." Maybe you've heard of it? I dunno...it was creepy. And jumpy. It was about this kid who ate people and lived in a person's attic. Terrifying, right? More like, HORRIFYING. I was with a bunch of people I didn't know and so once the first scene happend I was already screaming, "NO!! NOOOOOOO!!!!" and hugging this girl's knee that I didn't even know.

Yeah, I'm weird.

The people I was with were "Experienced Horror-Movie Watchers" so with me...all wimpy and dorky and such a middle-schooler...it was sort of hilarious. I was like, "Yo, dude. I am FREAKED out!"And...yeah. Every jumpy scene I screamed.

And that was the night my reputation was ruined.

I was known as the girl with the scream that was scarier than the horror movie itself.Yup. A guy actually said that. He was like, "Woah! That girl's scream is scarrier than the movie!"

And I am proud.

Then somebody died and I just ran out of the room...and didn't come back. For one thing...I was scared. Number two...I...don't...know.

I was sort of forced to watched this movie. I had the choice to leave...and save myself from being mentally scarred for the rest of my life (geez)! But I didn't do it. I fell into peer pressure, I guess.

Peer pressure is hard. Because for me...running out of watching a horror movie sort of ruined my reputation. I was known as the girl who was a wimp and couldn't survive watching the entire movie. I'm not saying horror movies are wrong, I'm just saying that I didn't feel like it was right. I felt like I should've left. And so I did. And even though I felt embarrased because maybe if I had survived through that movie I could've made some friends...maybe those people weren't right for me. I don't know.

God loves fighters, not quitters...a guy named Robby Dawkins would say. Even when times are tough and something doesn't feel right, God's looking down at you sayin', "Wow, that girl was fighting for something good. I'm so proud she's mine."

Besides...I just gotta say, The Hunger Games movie is going to be WAY better than this. Seriously...the world will be watching.

Emma

style\\ lovin' yellow

I've been lovin' yellow. It's my favorite color in the whole wide world. At least for now... or forever. Who's knows? Cause I don't. :) Here's some inspiration for yellow...

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Loving the skirt...and the jacket... and the whole sha-bang. :) I can't decide.

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That yellow-striped sweater is amazing... :)

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yellow scarf. hee hee (plus that hair is crazy awesome. Just saying)

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ahhhh...home sweet home. Converse. Yellow Converse. Life is sweet that way...

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haha I just like these. I'm not sure if I'd wear them, but they are amazing.

What's your favorite? Do you like yellow?

Happy Friday, readers. :) So glad for tomorrow today. Saturday...heavenly. Magical. Glorious. Man, I love Fridays. Tonight, pizza. Life is good.

Emma

i. am. obsessed.

I.
think.

I.

Am.

Obsessed.

The movie is coming out March 23rd - THIS MONTH, PEOPLE! THIS MONTH! I am so excited, I am not even capable of telling you the fullness of it. :) haha

But I think I have figured something out. And before I continue, if you haven't read these books I suggest you don't read on...go to some store, buy the series, and read. Then come back here and then go see the movie. Deal? Deal.

If you're still reading this, person who has not read the series, go check your facebook or something. Sorry.

Okay, I used to love Gale. Why? Because in my opinion, he was more manly than Peeta. I'm just saying. Peeta was all frosting and flowers. Gale was, let's kill stuff and let's eat it. If you were to choose who was more manly, would you pick Peeta? Probably not. Or at least I hope not. Gale was more of the manly dude in these books... that's why I liked him.

Until book #3, Mockingjay. When somehow this "manly-ness" I liked about him sort of took over. It was all about war now. Defeating the Capital. And Peeta... I felt so sorry for that guy. He had such a strong, undying love for Katniss and here he was... thinking she was going to kill him or something crazy.

But then everything ended and Gale was completely gone from the last few pages. And it was left with Katniss and Peeta forever. In the beginning when I was reading these books, if I knew this series ended with them together, I would have died. But after Gale got all weird, I was alright with Katniss going with Peeta.

Until I closed the book and thought about everything I just read. I realized that Katniss needed Peeta. Even though Katniss and Gale have so much more in common, Peeta is a gentle guy. One that cares. One that loves you no matter what.

And Gale just left.

Why did I think Katniss should be with him? I don't know! And I've been thinking about it even more... Katniss has been through so much. She's a fighter. She doesn't give up when things get hard. By the end of Mockingjay, she was emotionally and physically empty. She had nothing left.

And then there was Peeta. The soft dude. The one who cares. The one who would love her after all the junk they went through.

That's what I figured out. Just had to put that out there.

Emma

leap day

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Today is Leap Day. February 29th. Woah.

I really want to meet a person who was born on this day. And I want to give them a hug. Don't ask. They must be sad, so they need a hug. This is my way of life. Give people hugs and there will be happiness. Unless you're my friend Kaitlin. She hates hugs.

Leap Day is special...It comes and goes off of our calendars. Four years from today another Leap Day will roll around and four years ago a Leap Day was in the past. Today is a crazy day. Remember it though...days like these don't come around often...remember today as something amazing...something memorable. Life doesn't last for eternity, so when an extra day comes along, make sure you take it. Jesus gave you life...

Now you get to choose to live it.

emma.

lost in thoughts

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This has been on my mind for so long... the future hubster (yes, "hubster." It's my word my for "husband". Don't ask, I just thought it was cool). I wonder about him a lot... going crazy wondering if we've never met before or if I already know who he is. Do you ever think about your guy? Maybe wonder what he looks like...talks like...WHO HE IS! Or is all this just me? Somebody...is this just Emma?

I made a list once and finally wrote it down while my friend and I thought about our future hubsters. We both decided that above all the other things we wanted was for him to love God. If he didn't love God, I don't know what I would do. One thing I look forward with him is serving God together. I mean, c'mon. Serving God together. It doesn't get much better than that. :) But wouldn't that be amazing? Ahhhh....so amazing.

There are definitely other things...like, he's gotta be gorgeous! That's just required. Honestly, I hope he has dimples when he smiles. That is all I ask!!!!! [imaging his smile] I'm dead.

Do you ever think about your dream guy? Maybe? You know, there's a guy out there for you. Maybe he's even thinking about you right now. Don't get lost with a guy who doesn't cherish you for you. Your perfect guy is out there...you just got to look for him sometimes.

Emma