I was listening to this one song called, Have Your Way, by Britt Nicole and everything in this one song is exactly how I'm feeling. It's been a rough and long week and this one song seemed to put the feelings that are in my heart into words.
The song starts like this,
"Feels like I've been here forever, Why can't you just intervene?
Do you see the tears keep falling? And I'm falling apart at the seams.
But you never said this road would be easy, But you said you would never leave,
And you never promised that this life wasn't hard, But you promised you would still take care of me.
So I'll stop searching for the answers, I'll stop praying for an escape,
And I'll trust you God with where I am and believe that you will have your way."
(you can listen to this song, here.)
God didn't promise that when we believe in Him all our problems will go away, but He did promise that He would comfort us and pick us up during the trials of this life. It reminds me of this poem,
Footprints in the Sand
by Mary Stevenson
One night I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord.
Many scenes from my life flashed across the sky.
In each scene I noticed footprints in the sand.
Sometimes there were two sets of footprints,
other times there were one set of footprints.
This bothered me becasue I noticed
that during the low periods of my life,
when I was suffering from
anguish, sorrow, or defeat,
I could only see one set of footprints.
So I said to the Lord,
"You promised me Lord,
that if I followed you,
you would walk with me always.
But I have noticed that during
the most trying periods of my life
there have only been one
set of footprints in the sand.
Why, when I needed you most,
you have not been there for me?"
The Lord replied,
"The times you have
seen only one set of footprints,
is when I carried you."
We may fall down but God can pick us up again. He never stops loving, he never stops caring, he never stops forgiving. He wants to neal beside you and put you back together again.
I realize that I may have trials in my life and the light at the end of the road may be dim, but I have God with me to give me a hand when I get hurt and I have him to pick me up and carry me again when I fall down.
When God came into my heart- it wasn't a feeling, it was a promise. He promised me that he would never leave me and would still continue to love me through the high and low. Sure, I mess up a lot, but God doesn't care. He forgives and then he forgets- that's one of the great qualities about God.
I may not like what's going on in my life, but God's my comfort during the trials. He's there- he's here. He's my hope when my path is dark- he guides me across. He never lets go when you grasp and look to him for help.