jesus stalker>> that's me.

SURPRISE! [confetti explosion] I'M BACK!

I'm sorta weird because... I'm a Jesus stalker. Whenever I go places I'm always looking for the guys with long brown hair and a beard and leather bracelets... know what I'm saying? I'm trying to find the Jesus in the crowd. haha AND GUESS WHAT!? HE SERVED ME FOOD LAST NIGHT!! I know, sitting in a restaurant and then a guy brings out my hamburger and is decked out in long brown hair, beard, and leather bracelets. GEEZ LOUISE. I saw JESUS!!!! haha :) I'm such a weirdo! Anybody else do this or is it just me? It's probably just me. Nevermind.

*emma

just today

I am leaving to San Diego today... what!? I know, so goodbye fellow peoples and I will see you Monday!! YAY! :) By the way, check out this video. Hilarious. The guy won a make your own commercial thing for the Super Bowl. It made my day. :) So... yeah, when the Super Bowl comes around, this commercial will be playing. So pumped. :)

emma

alone.

I don't know about you, but sometimes it feels like I'm the only girl in the entire world who feels alone. That my low times could have been worse. That my struggles don't mean anything compared to others. And today... I want to say something about that.

God made us humans equal...right? Right.

I feel alone. A lot. But, since I decided that Jesus is always there for me I don't feel... as alone as I used to. (Anybody out there know what I'm saying?) But then there's the struggles I deal with that just knock me back down again. People tell me, "Your struggles could have been a lot worse, ya know that, Emma, right?"

Actually, no, I don't.

We've all got struggles. Maybe you're parents are divorced. Maybe you know somebody who just passed away. Maybe you know somebody who's homosexual. Maybe you're having financial problems. Maybe you don't think you're good enough. Maybe you think that things will never change.

Maybe you just feel...alone.

I know how you feel. But people have told me that things could have been a lot worse for me and... to be honest, that just makes me mad. Because...

a problem is a problem.

pain is pain.

a struggle is a struggle.

everyone's different,

everyone's got their own life,

but we've all got problems.

So I feel like since someone else's problem could be worse, I can't tell anybody mine because that would just say I'm a wimp and to start healing I've got to have a really, really bad problem.

that's when I feel alone.

when I can't tell anybody anything.

because most likely,

they've have an even worse problem

and I won't qualify.

a problem is a problem.

pain is pain.

a struggle is a struggle.

you need to do something about it.

You're not alone. People have probably told you that. People have told me that. No matter how screwed up your thing you've got going on is (whatever was your first thought, that's the "thing") you need to do something about.

Maybe you've heard people say, "God is love"?

That's a good pain killer.

Knowing that, Hey! Jesus likes you. I like you. And GUESS WHAT!?

That's called God's love.

Whenever you feel alone or feel pain talk to somebody about it. Because most likely they just want to tell somebody about their problem to. You can't heal without knowing what the hurt is. And you can't love without feeling loved. So go hug somebody.

Cause, guess what?

They probably need it.

HUG!

*emma

tumblr thursday*

I love tumblr! It's full of cute pictures and sayings... LOVE LOVE LOVE! LOVE! I don't have a tumblr account so guess what!? I'm posting them here!! WOO HOO FOR YOU (AND ME)! *ding! and weird grin* here you go... :)

I like to hold leaves too. :)

This movie rocks my socks. "Kevin's ah girl!?"
:(

haha I guess we all have feelings. :)

it's a fam.

i'm a lost lover. do this everyday when i think about my future hub...wherever you are.

i'm a nerd. love this.

aaaaaawwwwwww....

heh heh, this is so me.

totally!

i am going to go cry now.

which one's your fave?

*emma

make me laugh.

I laughed until I died. Your turn.

which one made you laugh the hardest?

emma

I'm such a writer...are you?

I'm such a writer.

Always have been.

And hopefully always will be.

I know my writing on this blog may sorta...stink. And it probably does. But writing is just something fun I like to do. Sometimes I don't have enough time to sit here and edit, rewrite like writers do. I use the simple spell check and then when something doesn't make sense, I say, "Please Jesus, translate it in their minds!!!" because I need to get homework done (sorry).

One thing that I like to do though, is journal. Life. More life. And more life. All in a notebook.

Amazing. :) *ding! and weird grin*

I've been writing in journals for about two years now. I love how you can look back on things and say like, "OOOOOOOOHHHHHH yeah, I remember that..." See things and remember when times were hard or really awesome or in between. I love to add quotes on certain pages, draw all over everywhere, put stickers on the cover.

It's me in a book.

[by the way, I know that quote "You can't start the next chapter in your life...." has nothing to do with what I'm talking about right now. I just liked it. :) heh heh]

I love how when you write in a journal, you can write anything. ANYTHING. Nobody can judge what you say when it's in your journal unless it's on the table and one of your siblings (or mom) will come around, flip it open, and know everything about you. Creepy. Anyhoo... (I'm not saying that from experience! haha Just warning you... It is possible! Almost happened!)

I love to see how far I've come. My break-throughs. How I survived. :) Journaling is amazing. [read this next sentence in a gospel voice] "Thank you JESUS for JOURNALING!" [thank you, my dear reader]
Here's some cool journaling tips I found around the internet. Up top ^ and below. :)

Are you a writer? What do you love about it? Any sweet tips?

*emma

fashion\\ just be you...

what do you think? what's your favorite part?
emma